This is not a feel sorry for myself post.
And as this is a pet blog I don’t want to make it about me. But the point is this is my blog and I am the writer of it so I need to get something off my chest.
I am giving up writing. There I said it. Not writing this blog but writing books – especially novels. I have been writing novels for the last 20 years. Seems such a long time. Is it time wasted? No, not really. because I learned and honed my craft in all that time and I am in fact quite proud of my novels. The fact that they have resulted in disappointing sales doesn’t take anything from that. I believe in my stories and I’m not ashamed of writing them. There are many reasons why I’ve decided to give up, but I don’t want to go into them here.
But there is one novel that I really need to finish first. A fantasy that’s really important because it features my dear black and white cat Suzy, who passed over the bridge 16 years ago.
This beautiful little cat and I shared 13 years on this planet together and I have written this story in her memory. I don’t want to rush it because I want it to be a great read. I owe her that. And I’ve been working on it on and off for the past year. It’s nearly there. Just have to edit. But something keeps holding me back. That fear of failure I suppose. But it’s for Suzy and I don’t care about how successful it is because it’s something special between us. Something I want to do to celebrate our special bond and to show that I’ll never forget my first little fur daughter.
From now on I’m going to focus on my two cat blogs, animal healing and pet photography. And I shall continue to be a voice for the animals. If only I had more money to help them though. It’s so frustrating knowing I can’t help as much as I’d like to. Even the sales of Athena’s book, her rescue story A Forever Home For Athena, have been disappointing. I wrote it to raise funds for my favourite cat shelters.
So, that’s it. Writing novels isn’t for me any more. There are two screenplays I’d like to finish though….maybe one day.